"Update"; Did not take the scheduled #17 chemo

I haven't done an update for awhile since my last chemo was 3 weeks ago, I am scheduled for the double whammy of Adriomycin and Cytoxin every three weeks. I did have a doctor's appointment this past Friday, 11/6/09, chemo was to follow. I knew going into the appointment that I would not be taking a treatment at this time. If you read my last update from 10/19, I explained what was going on with me and the natural measures I took with both my son's help. Things greatly improved! The Bells Palsy has subsided, the swelling in my face is gone, and all but a -smaller than golf ball size lump remains under my chin, (this is a swollen lymph node, not a tumor). My blood pressure has also remained stable, and I lost the 15 pounds I regained and another 5 to boot! This was a healthy weight loss from vegetable juice fasting for 3 weeks. I got plenty of nutrition, and continue to feel better every day. My sleep has improved since I can now sleep flat again instead of elevated on four pillows to prevent the further swelling of my face. I can also sleep on both sides and my back again, since the neck no longer hurts and the numbness of my head is gone.
I will give some credit to the chemo for perhaps stopping/shrinking some of the cancer cell growth, but the thought of not having a light at the end of the tunnel helped me to make my decision to halt further chemo treatment. You see, the oncologist again told me that I will stay on the Adriomycin and Cytoxin until I reach the max for me, (which is not really a measurable dose, since some tolerate doses higher than others), the measure must come on how and when it starts affecting my organs. Then I have another type of chemo to look forward to that he tells me is "harsher" than the combined two that I am currently on, for he says I will always need to be on chemotherapy. I only see that path as a downward spiral of which I will not feel like life would be much worth living. If I must be taken by this disease, it will be on a path of feeling good for as long as I can. But I still hold on to the many documented cases that have won their battle of even stage 4 cancer (like mine) through nutrition, increased oxygenation, exercise, good sleep, sunshine, hydration, positive thinking, prayer/faith, and love.
The scariest part of the path I've chosen is that now I have to take total responsibility for my health. I have to always be strong and stick to the program. I will pray to God for strength, and know that I can lean on Him at times when I am weary, and trust what I have taught my sons; You can do anything you put your mind to.-- I will be very mindful!
United in health, humanity, and the environment, Laura